Saturday, July 5, 2014

Pain

"I'm not sure if I'm depressed. I mean, I'm not sad. But I'm not exactly happy either. I can laugh and joke and smile during the day, but sometimes when I'm alone at night I forget how to feel."


Wednesday, June 11, 2014

Interpersonal Conflicts

Conflicts with others can be very stressful. If you experience such difficulties, you have a number of options that might help.

When someone upsets you, try to stay calm. Do not add fuel to the fire. “A mild answer turns away rage, but a harsh word stirs up anger,” says Proverbs 15:1
Try to settle differences privately and respectfully, thus dignifying the other person. – Matthew 5:23-25
Try to gain insight into his or her feelings and viewpoint. Such insight “slows down [our] anger” because it puts us in the other person’s shoes. (Proverbs 19:11) It can also help us to see ourselves through the other person’s eyes.
Try to forgive. Forgiveness is not only beautiful. It is also good medicine. As reported in a 2012 study, “unforgiving thoughts” resulted in “significantly higher” blood pressure and heart rate, whereas a forgiving attitude reduced stress. –Colossians 3:13

Thank you to my brother Paul for sharing. I love you. 

Thursday, April 24, 2014

Forget about the past and move forward.

I’ve been writing my memoir for the past several months, and my manuscript is nearly finished, however, over the past few weeks, I’ve really been considering not moving forward with it.

I’ve been writing a lot about the past. You know, my childhood, teens, relationships, troubles, successes, and my son. What I’ve learned through all of this is I’m content with my past, where I’ve been, I even have some great ideas about where I want to go. I think I felt like I needed to publish something to get validation, but that’s not the case anymore.  I’ll give the manuscript to Nikko when he is old enough to appreciate it, but I don't think I need to expose myself to the world.

Let’s forget about the past or at least accept where we have been and move forward. That’s what I’m doing. I’m very happy with where I am right now. All of this writing has been extremely beneficial for me.  Initially there were other intentions, but through the writing, I’ve been able to let things go, things I’ve been holding onto for months, for years.

A lot is changing for me right now. Next month I’ll be in a new place. I have wanted a dog for a while, so I bought an Irish Wolfhound, and have decided to call him Oliver. He will arrive when he is eight weeks old, mid-May. I haven’t had the opportunity to keep a pet since my toy poodle, Russel passed in 2010 (travel and such). But now, I’m ready, and am confident we will make each other very happy. He’s going to be enormous; he is the largest breed, a sight hound… I’m really looking forward to meeting him!

Since my last posts, you probably know I’ve been taking ballet lessons, and continue to practice yoga. In addition, I’ve eliminated meat, dairy and alcohol from my diet completely. I feel good about finally becoming a full-on vegetarian. The only problem is that I’m hungry all the time. I eat ten times more than I used to, although my options seem very limited. I’m not very good in the kitchen, so I tend to stick with a few staple dishes: quinoa, brown rice, black beans, and steamed veggies. I’m over tofu; I just can’t handle the texture anymore, LOL. Boring right, maybe that’s why I’m eating so often and so much? If you have any simple suggestions, key word SIMPLE, please share. 

So, this next month I’m starting what’s called the “Whole Life Challenge”. I’m not really familiar with the program yet, but I think it involves a lot of cross fit and basically me being accountable for my food intake and life choices. Beginning May 3rd, I believe it’s a national challenge, lasting two months, so, that’s exciting right!?!?

We shall see what happens, I’ll let you know.

I’m saying goodbye for now. Here is a photo of Oliver I received from his breeder, won’t be this small for long. J 


Friday, March 28, 2014


10 Signs you’re a Hipster. 
In a Good Way.

1. You prefer to (always) bicycle or walk or bus instead of driving your own 3,000 ton black-blood fueled chariot for your 100 to 200 pound body.

2. You read labels. Your eyes dilate when you see an organic certification, and narrow when you see “all natural!”

3. You don’t count calories. You count how many days a week you work out. And by working out, you mean “climbing” or “yoga” or “mountain biking” or “road biking” or “hiking”* or “kayaking” or “snowshoeing” or “skiing” or “snowboarding” or something human-powered, generally. You don’t like plugging in your bicycle and walking in the same place in sweatified, toxic, un-cocooned air.

4. You like formal, romantic, old school dates…but you arrange them by text. And, just as often, a date goes under the guise of “hanging out” or “doing something” like bowling, music, party (VIP party is a bonus), or the aforementioned *hiking (dogs = bonus points).

5. You drink coffee. You drink more coffee. You drink more coffee. You drink tea. You drink pu-erh. You don’t drink mate anymore. You don’t drink kombucha anymore. You don’t drink bubble tea. You do drink smoothies, and instagram them.

6. You instagram everything, because it’s the quickest way to water your social media streams while preserving your life for your future children while still having a life (because instagram enables you to auto-populate your tumblr, Pinterest, Facebook, Twitter. You don’t have Pinterest).

7. You wish you could shop at Urban Outfitters but you don’t (everything’s made in China, see #2, and the place is GOP-owned by a Santorum donor)…except for that one time when…you went to walk your dog around the place because they’re dog-friendly and the men/women who work there are hot/style-inspirations and you don’t have an office, you work in a cafĂ© so hashtag UO is a good place to get warm while you’re on your cracked iPhone and…you found a khaki hat that’s made in the USA. Instead, you shop vintage at Buffalo Exchange, or the true hipster valhallas: thrift shops.

8. You don’t want to get married because you love being single and you’re okay with loneliness but you want to get married when you have children.

9. You rescue dogs and cats and are vegan or vegetarian and you will not buy things you love because they’re not ethically-sourced and you definitely vote and you supported Obama way back in 2006 when no one supported Obama anymore (before he had a great enemy like Mitt and everyone came around) and you consider the farmers’ market with sun and local food and grounded farmers with beautifully worn hands like living mahoghany to be the the best place ever and you live downtown and live on your (mac, duh) laptop because you want to make millions of dollars for good and you have a big moustache or if you’re a girl long-cut straight bangs and put make up on the edges of your eyes like Elizabeth Taylor in Cleopatra or you wear bright, bright, bright colors or you eschew tattoos ’cause they’re so mainstream now and besides they aren’t vegan or you do other things I can’t think of because I’m not enough of a hipster, though I’m one of few hipster wannabes. Everyone else is too busy denying they’re a hipster.

10. You deny being a hipster. 

Your denial of being a true hipster involves saying “even though I…” many times.

Saturday, April 13, 2013

Happy Birthday Nikko!


Every single day since you were born, you’ve added something so amazing to my world that I can’t even imagine my life without you in it. Wherever life will take you, whatever endeavors that you choose, I will always be so proud of you! HAPPY BIRTHDAY, my boy! A day never goes by that you are not thought about with love, smile and happy memories. Wishing you joy and happiness all year through!